Our Deepest Fear

That made my heart smile... a very inspiring video =)

11-11-11

My very first "Dream Board" (tadah!)✮

I love being creative, this is  how I express what I want in life.

So here, as you can see, this is a very inspiring stuff 

on how I want to run my my life.

Back then, I never knew what I really wanted and 

I often ask myself  who am I?

It's like I'm searching for something that will satisfy myself
and then I go deeper, all I see was emptiness inside me.

It's like I want to be free, and find the real me.

Asking myself over and over... 

(looking for something that I don't understand)

Until such time, little by little, day after day

I want to come out and find the purpose of my life.

Beginnings are hard, as I've said repeatedly.

It takes a period of self-discovery to find that person.
I just learn more about myself. Eventually, it leads to
 awareness and make realistic goals.
Just look inside yourself, listen to your heart's desire
and everything else will follow=)

"And will you succeed? Yes! You will indeed! (98 and 3/4 percent guaranteed)."

Dr. Seuss

(Of course, I need a lot of work hard to make it happen :D)

♛ Creative Every Day ♛

My Picture Collage... Bye-bye!!!

It was my first time making a collage of pictures.
 Compiled of treasured photos, captured moments,
unforgettable memories w/ family and friends♥
I even use my name-patch uniform as a decoration :))
Start from cutting my baby pictures up to
finding my graduation photos
(Graduation thing is one of my greatest event,
to start the next stage of my life. hmm memories... haha).
Though I chose to change my picture collage
to my very own "dream board",
 I still have a lot of pictures so I'd rather lessen it haha
(Narcissism at it's finest! LOL!).

Aha! I need more insights! To stay focused on images
that represents my dream,
words that inspires me to move forward and
anything that motivates me. =)

Oh! dream board... I LOVE the dream board idea so much!
It serves as the as a reminder to aspirations and
what you want your life to be.
Well, if I have extra time I'm gonna work on it asap.
Or maybe, during Christmas vacation.
 Wah... Cut out pictures from the magazines already!

Clays are extraordinary, layered, crystal structures which have, built into them, what amounts almost to an innate tendency to evolve…Clay has plans.
-Lyall Watson, from An Introduction to Clay Colloid Chemistry

("I am terribly sorry for the inconvenience." chos! haha 

It was supposedly a draft, didn't notice that I already posted it.

 I was sleepy while I'm typing it)

This is a very positive day!

         

"Some people are always grumbling because roses have thorns. I am thankful that thorns have roses." - Allophones Karr

I am simply overjoyed right now. wah... I could burst!  

My heart wants to cry out of happiness. 

Sometimes the best thing that happen is when you least expect it. 

We often find ourselves rushing for the things to solve it right away, 

while we didn't even realize that we have
to face the trials over and over again 

for us to recognize of what needs to be changed. 

And eventually, there's a lot you can gain more in the long run unexpectedly. 

It takes a lot of time for me to accept a certain thing until slowing down brought me patience. 

Little by little I became more aware of my thoughts and my emotions,
 leading me to face the reality of life.
Honestly speaking, when I was in my teenage years,
I always expect for something to happen and was hoping that everything will turnout to be perfect, 

but I never try to do anything.

 I was in my crazy side back then like, I love vain wishes

 (hoping that genie will appear in front of me and in just one snap, tadah! wish granted haha!) 

and asking for instant gratification in everything. :P

 (Anyway, I'm about halfway through season 3 of Ugly Betty
 hihi I love watching it.
I like Amanda, she's super crazy, haha that's why I love her,
because I see a part of myself in her before.
BUT I love Betty more, although she's kinda weird, somewhat naive etc.. 

She makes it a point that she will improve more,
a bit knowledgeable but not in fashion.
Betty loves her family so much, & what I like most about her is that she
always  follow her HEART'S DESIRE=)
That leads her to good fortune, she never let failure to interrupt her to accomplish her everyday goal.
SO Uhmkay.. moving on, (Let's talk about the movie next time)
mine first :))

Going back to my life's journey.
I've learned the 2 most values that makes a huge difference to me.

First is about patience, and next is about courage.

Once in a while, life gets tougher, more responsibilities to accomplish
and a lot more to focus on. 

And worse, a sudden problem may arise that just cant be avoided.
In times like these worrying wont help,
it will aggravate the situation more.
Staying calm, is the best solution for that
to remain mindful and become decisive.

 So there, when life is challenging you to face everything,
 hiding is not an option,

The test of courage and willingness can change us by overcoming the difficulties and fear of doing the chosen course. "At the end of the day, faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it."

The word ‘courage’ stems from the Latin word ‘cor’ – which means heart. And it’s true, courage is a state of the heart. It’s the ability to do what seems right – even if it feels scary.


I♥EVERYDAY
It gives me courage to fight and to pursue my dreams =) 
AND I'M THANKFUL TO ALL THOSE PEOPLE WHO SUPPORTS ME ALL THE WAY.

Day 7 to 30!

(My graduation picture)

I can't think of a picture what to post so I better chose this one. 

Hmmm.. What made me think to come up to this?

I am currently reviewing for this December 2011 NLE. 

And I'm not fully focused yet, that's why I need to limit using the internet.

This picture of mine, motivates me to strive more 

and to concentrate more on my review. (haha kinda!)

It's very overwhelming to achieve what you want in life
 and be proud of yourself =)

So uhm... I'm hoping for the best now and that to
conquer any obstacles that comes my way. 

(feeling like afraid, losing or whatsoever will just
hinder me of getting what I want)

I'll just do whatever I can. wah! I'm kinda nervous, really!

Thinking about the exam feels like I'm gonna freak out. 

Huhu noo... Not now, and not anymore...

(Hmm... Deep Breathing Exercise)

THINGS TO DO TODAY TIL THE FF WEEK:

(hahaha! oh yeah. okay.)

-Some household chores

If you have extra time for that .

-Study everyday

It's now or never.

(GO! GO! GO!) tadah! :))

Day 6

"The big question is whether you are going to be able to say a hearty yes to your adventure." 
- Joseph Campbell

THINGS TO DO TODAY:

-Some household chores

Do my laundry

Clean the house

Wash the dishes 

-Buy gray shoes loafers 

Wearing penny loafers (my new fav! so cuute :p)

-And lastly my never ending passion!

Studying hahaha, i see :))

(4 day vacation can lead to 4 days of procrastination.

NOOO!!! 50 more days to go before the Board Exam!

kbyehavtogo oh oh!)

It's all up to you! I want i want i want...

"Dare to be remarkable... Nova." - Jane Gentry

Honestly, I'm not feeling fine.  I don't want to be miserable thinking of what might others gonna say. I'm tired of being weak, I'm tired of doing nothing but I end up allowing them to distract me.  In this world of imperfection, people are just there to put you down, some won't even give a care, others are trying to understand, while only a few can see the real me. It's hard to share what you really can't express. Showing to others of what I am not and just hide behind my fake smile. I can't even explain why I'm feeling ambiguous knowing that I'm a very flamboyant person.  I can't show the real side of me since there is something that's holding me back and limits me from doing the best I can. In addition to what I said, almost everything bring change to who I am now. I realized that the more I am suppressed, the more I want to pursue of what I want to become. Maybe it's too late to start again and again but I've already learned from my mistakes. Also, I don't have to regret any decisions I've made from the past, for the reason that, it serves as a key for me to unlock my personal best. =)  So don't let anything stand in the way of your happiness because life is about creating yourself. ♥